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Howling bare on the Moon

I left Earth with out telling you the reality.

I informed you it was for the cash, and that was partly it.

Shitty, I do know.

And the irony of this second — my recording this message, and by no means understanding while you’ll obtain it, tomorrow, subsequent week, while you’re 70, or when you ever will.

I had my probabilities, and I folded my hand each time.

I’d have all the time chosen this path. Flying off Earth, serving to to construct the Moonbase. I don’t know a lot, however I do know what I do know.

And I’d all the time select to leap in silly holes just like the one I’m in. I’ve carried out it too many instances, regardless of the warnings, regardless of the foundations.

Gained each gamble earlier than, proper?

One in all my many flaws, trying to roll the cube.

Roll sufficient instances, it’s sure to not go your approach.


Let me begin by telling you what I really like about you.

Charlie — your athleticism isn’t what makes you particular. It’s your perspective with others. Individuals take pleasure in being round you. Lean into that.

Georgie-boy — your thoughts leads you to think about fantastical worlds. You’re a dreamer, an excessive amount of like me. Oh, what some individuals wouldn’t give to faucet into your ideas for a day, an hour.

I’ve seen you boys develop from little hellions into nice younger males. I’m sorry to not see the way you rise above the remainder of life’s challenges.

I really like you each. Inform your mom that I nonetheless suppose fondly of her, nonetheless remorse that I didn’t make it work between us. Not that it’ll matter to her.


You’d suppose I’d be honoured to be the primary to die on the Moon. Hope they’re not silly sufficient to place up a plaque: “Right here died JT for being a dumbass.”

I’m on a two-day inspection of crunchers and miners. I let you know, travelling across the Moon by no means will get previous. Different individuals pay me to take their shifts — cash I ship to you. They don’t like its otherworldliness, the loneliness of sitting within the Moon crawler because it rolls by way of the panorama.

I’ve cherished these moments.

Often, the journey is routine, however typically you discover one thing caught, not working proper.

One of many miners was pinned. The drones couldn’t nudge it.

I cabled up, belayed down. Kicked the bot twice.

Then the tunnel fell in, pinned my leg. One way or the other, my swimsuit’s intact. The ache, it’s unimaginable, however subsiding. Can’t be a great factor.

You suppose I’d have taken the emergency beacon with me, however no.

They’ll ultimately observe the crawler, but it surely’ll be too late. I’ve referred to as the bots to dig me out, however these beasts are gradual. Solely have an hour or so of air, if the sensor’s to be trusted.

All bets are off.

Might be worse. Fortunate to be tucked beneath an overhang. Damned fortunate to not have my head pinned.

Blessed to have an opportunity to file this message.


Boys, let me provide you with two bits of recommendation I ought to have shared earlier than.

First, betting as a vocation is for suckers. May need a great evening, a great week. In the long term, the home all the time wins. Put your cash elsewhere. Most likely don’t have to say it. You’ve learnt that watching me.

Second, do what you’re keen on. Life is brief, shorter than you count on. Discover your ardour and go all in. Simply know, sooner or later, you’ll harm these round you.


The Moon wanted electricians and plumbers and mechanics and 100 different labourers. I utilized and handed the assessments.

In secret, in fact. Didn’t assist you to weigh in, to cease me. That’d be an excessive amount of of a bet.

Stored the percentages in my favour.

They took me.

You laughed and thought I used to be loopy. And I didn’t deny it. However when your humour turned to anger, I didn’t deny that, both. You needed me in your lives. I needed to be there, too.

However one thing bigger referred to as me.


I all the time considered myself as wild and free.

Right here, on the Moon, I’m tamed and trapped.

Haven’t minded, not one bit.

I’ve bounced round like a kangaroo, stood on a hostile, alien world, marvelled at Earth in its entirety and the variety of stars I can see, been part of one thing higher, howled bare on the Moon, imagined the Moon howling again at me.

I’ve slapped a full home down, beating three aces, the playing cards drifting on the desk as I scrambled to gather the chips.

Despatched that cash again to you on prime of my common pay. That was the promise. Me coming right here, you’d have higher lives, cowl the price of homes and training. You wouldn’t need for something materials.

Once I wasn’t taking part in poker, I principally watched the Moonscape and the celebrities and Earth and thought: “Goddamn, the Universe is gorgeous.”

Too usually, I questioned why I couldn’t really feel that again dwelling, with you.

I don’t remorse coming right here, even now, trapped on this gap. It’s been a dream.

However I’m sorry that what I had with you couldn’t fill me.

I don’t count on or need your forgiveness. That’s not what I’m after.

Simply needed you to know, and know that I beloved you, greatest I may.

The story behind the story

Todd Honeycutt reveals the inspiration behind Howling bare on the Moon.

Three threads intertwined with the writing of Howling bare on the Moon. First, my writing group had a immediate about howling on the Moon (with a bonus for being bare), which naturally precipitated me to think about, “Why not howl on the Moon?” Second, I take pleasure in neighbourly video games of poker, and so I’d been searching for a strategy to incorporate a playing edge right into a story. Lastly, I had been excited about how individuals — when confronted with the strain between the wishes of the self and the wishes of the self in relation to others — make selections and justify their selections.



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